In Life Personal Song

Natal di Hatiku

December 26th, 2016
03.02 WIB

I was barely alive.
Too happy to forget the Christmas time. Every year in Christmas day, being a Christian that I am, has my own tradition to think, brood, and write. Ya, because I don't want to forget every grace that I got in every Christmas day (ya you know that I have a short-memory-brain-syndrome, right?). This year, I was so excited in every time I wait on the Lord's will and let Him speak to me. Does the Lord speak to me? How come? You won't get it, unless you're one of the people like me who understands that Christian is supposed to be based on personal relationship with God. And this I found very beautiful even sometimes confusing, but I know He will speak to me in His right way.

I have some things to wait for the God's answer this year. Personally, I'd make a list of hopes and prays for this year but I figured there are too many things. In the beginning, I trust that God will answer my pray, everything that I asked in His right time. And in this time I was so excited to let my self seek Him and let Him speak to me. I feel that God always be with me and hope that He will give me the answer of my pray. Surprisingly, it start to feel the Christmas season and the end of the year, the more I expect God to answer all my prays as soon as possible (because I was still wondering there will be so many miracles in the Christmas day). Nope. That's my ego when I forced the Lord to grant. So bad. But after a conflict of conscience for long enough time (maybe around a month when I started being busy with the preparation of Christmas serving), I'm fully aware that my life is under the power and authority of God alone.

I realize on something.
When you're all grown up, you don't list for things you want for Christmas. You list the things that you are thankful for all year round.
Yeah I was wrong about my list of hopes and prays. No no no, it was not about my list but about my self. Ya, I was wrong because I forced the Lord to answer my list.

I should figure there are too many things I'm grateful for. Christmas is the right time to being grateful for getting the good news about the birth of Jesus Christ. Without any list of hopes, the Lord has given to me the most precious One whom love the world. Without any asked, He'd love you, bless you, and keep you. The born of Jesus Christ in our heart is the truest meaning of Christmas. Christmas isn't Christmas till it happen in your heart. So, don't prepare your list of hopes in the Christmas day, but firstly and the most important is prepare your heart to let Him comes and lives. How to make it happen? Pray to God. Ask Him to give you worthy heart so that your life can condescend Him. So, your heart will ready to welcoming His birth for this world.
Natal di Hatiku (Cipt. Jonathan Prawira)
Seperti palungan,
layakkanlah hatiku menyambutMu Tuhan
Seperti emas, kemenyan dan mur,
biar hidupku berkenan padaMu

Sebab natal tak akan berarti tanpa kasihMu lahir di hatiku,
Hanya bersamaMu Yesus kurasakan selalu indahnya natal di hatiku  
Bersama paduan suara surga ku bernyanyi,
Kemuliaan di tempat maha tinggi,
Dan damai sejahtera di antara manusia,
Yang hidupnya berkenan kepadaMu
The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the one and only Son, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth.
(John 1:14 NIV)

Merry Christmas,
Dewi Lestari Natalia.

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In Life Personal Song

Great is Thy Faithfulness

As December approaches, I personally got very excited for the upcoming year (and also for my birthday hihi). 
Welcome 24! Yeay...
Getting older is something excited to feel but also something worry too. I thank God for every morning that I woke up, because morning by morning new mercies I see. This year I got new atmosphere of being older, like a garden fully with colorful flowers and rain came with the shining rainbow. Ah so great beautifully! I know that God loves me more and more and more. By His grace I can through pass a year in my life. One of the solid proof of how amazing God’s work is on how I passed my life without any significant affliction. God is good :)

I see the world a bit wider this year, to embrace more opportunities the which lies in front of me of focusing on God, family, and work. Man? Not yet haha (still pray for it xixi). I feel that God is completely blessing me up this year. But it didn't mean that something come without any obstruction. The obstruction must be exist in every life of humanity, but something I called bless is I can go with God in any hard situations in my life.

When ‘teen nowadays’ are not me anymore, I should start to think hard about the future. Twenty four years old is not a teen anymore, I must be one step closer to maturity and wisdom of life. "Happy birthday, Dee! Semoga semakin bijaksana dan dewasa dalam perkataan dan perbuatan ya!" That's one of my friends' hope for me on this birthday. "Dan semoga cepat-cepat ditemukan oleh jodohnya" Another lovelife hope, ada AMEN? Amin haha. 

Anyway, I and my church choir sang "Great is Thy Faithfulness!" on my birthday. I think this song is really show me up how God bless my life, and your life too.

“Great is Thy faithfulness,” O God my Father,
There is no shadow of turning with Thee;
Thou changest not, Thy compassions, they fail not
As Thou hast been Thou forever wilt be.

Summer and winter, and springtime and harvest,
Sun, moon and stars in their courses above,
Join with all nature in manifold witness
To Thy great faithfulness, mercy and love.

Pardon for sin and a peace that endureth,
Thine own dear presence to cheer and to guide;
Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow,
Blessings all mine, with ten thousand beside!

“Great is Thy faithfulness!”
“Great is Thy faithfulness!”
Morning by morning new mercies I see;
All I have needed Thy hand hath provided
“Great is Thy faithfulness!” 
Lord, unto me!

I didn't want to talk to much in this post. I just want to pour how bless I am with the mercy of God within my 24 years old of life. Thank God for you faithfulness to me.

I didn't achieve my goal about writing in my 23yo huft. Five drafts of ramblings are now safely tucked inside the blog draft folder. Some of my travel achievements this year didn't pour on my blog yet. Poor me on arranging blogging time management! Sorry :(

24yo lady,
Dewi Lestari Natalia.

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